Well not 100% new....But anyway he is totally wonderful...I am feeling shatterbrained so I am going to write about random things. I might be moving soon with him. I don't know when. He wants to get set up first, but I hate waiting. I was gunna go to college...can't afford it. It is just as well for right now. My life is kinda upside down right now. The only thing I know for sure is that if I try to kill myself again, 4 freaking people will not be my friend anymore, so I gotta keep on trying somehow...Ummm wanting to talk to him but have to wiat until later....Kinda hungry...VERY restless....pretty bored. Worried....mad, angery....almost rage...some hatred for people who bring other people down.....Yeah so I want to write and this whole thing is just ot get it out of my head so if you are reading and want to stop now then feel free.
I opened my heart up so much and I am afriad it is going to be hurt........
I am thinking how can my life be so screwed up and boring and stupid and I sound like I am younger than what I am right now, but I want things MY way...why does everyone else get their way and I am with-held from everything I want...something always comes up or there is not enough money...I don't have an easy life and I HATE life....but yeah here I am complaining.....I am so freaking MAD!!!!!!!!.......Whatever I am just gunna stop writing now........